It's been 1 year!!

So it has been exactly 1 year since my surgery. I went to the doctor this morning to have my final weigh-in. I have lost 81 lbs!!! I just can't believe it, and neither could the nurse who weighed me in today. I just can't picture myself 81 lbs heavier than I am now. I still look in the mirror and see a fat girl. I know my weight loss is significant, but I still have so much work ahead of me. I guess I never realized how big I actual was, I thought I was hot then, and I wonder why I couldn't get a date! I have lost about 20 more pounds than the doctor anticipated in the first year. I have put my whole life into this weight loss thing. It is all I think about, what to eat, how much to eat, when should I workout, how much should I workout. It has not been easy, and there has been many days I would rather sit on the couch and do nothing. I still want to loose at least 40 more pounds, and to be at my dream weight, 70 more pounds. I am 30 years old, and I never want to be morbidly obese again. I want to be a healthy person, but on the selfish side, I want some guy to notice me, and I want some girl to be jealous of me. I know, I know...but a girl can dream!